"Because I Love You"

 

these few day,  many thing was happened around me and on me as well. i really don't know how to make the choose from workplace, relationship with other and many many are going on now. because what i thinking is "You"

so i decided to post this song to you.

 

wish can express what i feel now, and let you know i am really take it seriously.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Busying and HAPPY Imagine day"

just a simple working day for me. alone and sleep in the car for while then having breakfast.

when i on my way to office,i was started to get order from  the "M.M." that is a person let me felt so tiring everyday. this person started to given me a order ask me to do this do that. what i can do is "Yes, Yes Strategic".

after that, when the lift open, everyone are at the ourside waiting for the people to open the "Hell Door"

but after that, i went out for social with the upper management people. bring them to mamak. and i have my second breakfast again. sigh.

but my mind was start thought abou the order from "M.M." so after finish the breakfast social, i started to do all the crazy job for today.

what i see only sticket. apparel, pen and laptop. so started to act like a machine. take apparel, look at the laptop. write, stick and hang it back. that is crazy cycle. and keep repeating over few hours.the oddness thing is happen here. i am smiling all the way. even on that time i am really busy until felt like want to quit the job. but i found out, i am smiling and i try to figure out that is the reason.but i get to know. is "YOU" i felt like today, something good will happen to me today.so i keep non-stop doing my task until all the way i skip my lunch.

then the "M.M." drow the rubbish task to me again. to ask me do it before 3pm. sign.when i finish the crazy cycle. i was get in to 2pm. so went out to met the people that think that are Pro, Expert, High-Classes people. sighing. Bull shirt lah. it just a sport.and you just learned it before other. don't act arrogance. if you really wnat to do that so, but buy yourself. don't borrom again. please. the "M.M." keep calling, to order me look for this person, that person at somewhere else. luckily i have a mounth the still can use. that you mean were given me a wrong direction again. "PAKA" everytimes, this kind of stuff sure will appear because of you. sighing. after that i was turining around the big round of the office, just want to safety location to park my car. until i have turn 3 round, really cannot stand with it. just park at some danger place. sigh.

Do you think i need to do that..?

that is almost 3pm, i am thinking want to have something for my tummy or not,because i really have so many task to deal with. but i think my tummy is complaining me. so i have no way to avoid it. because i was felt very hungry when around 11am actually. just really no time for food. if not, i am gonna to eat until i say enough. but i went out again with friend to have my late lunch. after that, i really hungry; but because i need to finish hell showroom. and also on the half way, the "M.M." calling me to shoot me a gun.  so i just have some, that enough for my tummy stop to complain then stop it, go back office to continue my work again.

after that, i done the nonsense urgent task. starting cleanning the hell showroom. that is really messy until i also  going to piss off because of the office people keep on the order some stock to the office, but they don't know at all. showroom and stockroom is full house. sighing. so i just dying over there. so i try get back my emotion back, to clear the showroom.on the half way, "M.M." appear again. then stop my step, to ask me to do another. that is really a bugger habit that "M.M." have. donno i will keep stand for it or not.

this is what i need to think about..? i donno, give me some advise, if can. hahahaha.

start do what he want, get messy again because to fulfil he opinionfrom 5pm until 7.30pm. that is really wasting my times. brother. so i started to clear the HEll Showroom. luckily the new black angel were come. that is really helped my alot. so i start to turbo my task.

until 8 something, the angel have to leave, so i just let it be. hahaha.but the angel really helped me alot.

then the happy thng was happen. i got a chance to chat with you. and that is so precious for me. even though just for while, but i am felt enough already.

so after i chat with you, i felt like recharge already. i speed up my work. then finnaly i bring the HEll to the world. just wait me to finsih the rest of keeping work. then the heaven will appear. hahahahaha.

but all were already 9pm. i think that is enough for today.

so i hope at least we can have some chat to keep in touch.  and you are really surprising me. you are same year, month and day with my older sister. maybe this is fate. i think hahahaha.

"Busying and HAPPY imagine day"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

" I am really take it very seriously. please give me a chance to Proof it to you."

Yesterday,

i was read a person blog. because i thought that is a way for me to know a person well.

by the way, i have full expectation before i read the profile.

after that, i cannot believe  you are the person that is over my expextation for everything.

i cannot believe, you are so tought and lonely in deep your heart with your life.

but i really hope that,your heart having a space for me to stay. and give me a chance to me to proof to you.

with what i think and also what i think to you.

just give me a chance to proof.

last time,i find out something in your phone. my number is nothing.

you don't even to save my number. but i try to think in this way, you just don't want to let other to know about my existing now.

but second thing is, i saw another person. you save that number. and also the content that is so intimidate with what i thought now, and also my feeling.

and that why, i asked you,what do you think about you and me.

that is a simple question or hard question i donno.

but i really think that, heartfelt  that is more important. i don't mind you might think i am too young for you now.

and honestly i am really want to settle down.

this is no a joke. i know. really not a joke. i really found what i want in my life.

you may ask you about my plan for my fututre. and i knew i will donno how to answer you. but what i can answer you is

my aim,

my goal,

my objective,

my target

that is "YOU"

you told me, even i have a goal for my future plan, but i do not know how to really apply it on future. you told me about the reallity on the future if we really want to facing. MONEY "12K" i knew that, that is big amount. maybe you want a very wonderful and fantasy lifestyle. i knew now, that is impossible for me.

but i will do my best to achieve it. let the dream come true. maybe that is not a dream for you. but what i want to do.just FULFIL whatever you want or whatever the criteria that you set. i like your principle, your personality. that is so attractive to me.

so what i want to say is,

you, YOU , YOU

everything just about you.

you are my start and also is my end. that is what i think and try to apply it in my life now.

so at least give me a chance to proof it.

these 2 month maybe that is hard to me to go throught, but i think that is first challenge for me to let me proof to you my determination.

so let you know. i am not kidding with you.

announce it again.

" I am really take it very seriously. please give me a chance to Proof it to you."