"WHY"

These few day, i found out. i cannot saw "M" online at all. i started to worried about "M". that is something that will not happen to "M" i think. so i am think about maybe "M" something connection breakdown, because since last time i chat with "M" the connection also have some problem already. so i try to think on the positive way. hope that is happen with what i think. at the same time, a reason that let me didn't think so much. because i am really suffering with the healthy problem. i getting cold and cough at the same time. and it was around 1 week plus already. the situation didn't turn recover at all, it become more bad.until i getting nosebleed when i found out at the shower. i afraid i will get cough until my blood come out if the state of my illness cannot get recover.

last time i hear from "M". because "M" also getting sick.  that is a another reason for me to worried about "M". and "M"'s  friend also get into illness as well. then what i knew from "M".the friend getting more bad. until need to send to the hospital. i hope the friend can get cure as soon as possible. and "M" as well.

but at the same time, i really hope can meet "M" i knew that.the period of 2 months are getting close. but last time "M" told me, maybe we can meet up within these 2 months. on that time i try to create any chances. but also cannot get it on the right way.i think maybe within these 2 months that is not a good time for us. so i try to keep this period as a challenge for me. hope after these 2 month that is a another good start for us. that is really what i am thinking now. so everyday i try working hard because i am really take it seriously on it. so i am fighting for my future. because i am really need you. hope you are feel that so.

 these few day, maybe because of the internet connection i cannot get "M" trought internet at all. so i am think about want to get "M" throught mobile phone. but i afraid will interrupt the routine.

so i will keep waiting for "M" all the time.

so i jsut want to announce it again.

"M"

i am really need you.

let me proof to you.

by the way, take care yourself on the right way.please.

i miss you.

i love you.

"WHY"